I am so thrilled with what he and CSC are planning for us. They are organizing and creating itineraries, but are still being open to detours if requested. This is going to be awesome!!!
I will go ahead and admit it now, though... I got some butterflies tonight wondering if this is the right thing. I've never had a big solo motorcycle adventure, and most have not been without my husband, so I am definitely a bit nervous. I know my skills on a bike are fine and I can handle myself, but I guess the "what if" has finally caught up to me. I've done really good at not thinking about it nor focusing on it until now, but I guess the best thing for me to do now is just talk it through and brainstorm some good solutions and backup plans... Just so I won't be worried about the "what ifs" anymore.
It's funny, I like to consider myself a pretty brave chick who is confident and tries to inspire other ladies to be confident and proud of themselves, but sometimes I realize that I still have my skeletons. I mean, up until I started riding motorcycles about 10 years ago, I was very naive and always played it safe. I never pushed the limits and followed all of the rules. I also tended to be in abusive relationships and took a lot of crap from people, just because I wanted them to like me. It wasn't until motorcycles came into my life that I realized things needed to change and I was one of them. This chick, that rides motorcycles and has had some awesome adventures pushing her limits, is still growing and learning. This is one of those times where I know I'm doing something right, but my previous self is creeping through and challenging the courageous and spontaneous me. It's tough to battle yourself. It's confusing and makes you feel crazy! Lol I know this experience and adventure will win in the end, but this time of self doubt sure sucks.
I'm sure that once I can really start focusing on my packing list and ensuring I can pack everything needed for my flight, that I will feel much better and will gain some confidence back. Plus, once I get on the bike I will be fine, as everything is always better when you're on a motorcycle! :-). I'm thinking back to my alaska trip when I rented the bmw gs650 and how intimidated I was by that bike, but I just reminded myself that the RX3 should be smaller and easier for me to handle than the 650, even though I handled the 650 just fine. See, I'm feeling better already. Just need to keep putting things in perspective and need to buck up!
Oh, and I just remembered that I have a private yoga session with my amazing instructor tomorrow and she is going to teach me some poses and flows that I can practice while I'm on my trip! That will definitely make me feel better if I can just center and get to a place of peace, even if it's a hectic or stressful situation or I've just had a long day. I am so glad that I've picked up practicing yoga and it's perfect timing for my adventure! I will see if I can get some pics of my yoga practice while on the trip. It should be interesting!
In closing, I know this is going to be an amazing adventure and I shouldnt waste any of my time on fears and doubts. Instead I just need to face them, figure out solutions and/or backup plans, and then continue on to this crazy awesome trip! And thank you again to all of you that have supported me through these planning stages. It really is incredible how even a few words of encouragement can help brighten spirits and ease a worried mind! Love to you all!
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